tick tock.

Do you hear that? That's the sound of a clock ticking away. Minutes, hours going by. And NOTHING. I am becoming impatient. No, scratch that. I am impatient. I truly believe I would not be this way if it weren't for the fact that we got that faint glimmer of hope via my medical records. That last ultrasound and that estimated due date of 9/9/11, instead of the 9/15/11 that we had been going on. My official due date was never changed, but you see why it might get someone excited for an early delivery?

There was definitely some mild excitement on Saturday when for about 6 hours straight I experienced contractions. Irregular in spacing but definitely longer in length. I figured I must be getting somewhere, finally. And then they just stopped. Can they do that?! What a tease. Since then it has been not much, if anything. I feel like my labor is at a complete standstill.

Okay, okay so my due date isn't until Thursday, I guess I do have some time. The only phone calls or text messages we get are usually along the lines of Has she had the baby yet? And every time we answer, "No, not yet, still waiting." I feel like I am disappointing everyone! I'm trying, I swear! I'm walking still, I clean the house, I ate pineapple, I've been doing it all! In turn, my impatience has been making me slightly frustrated and irritable (sorry, Lucas). I want to cry and stomp my feet. I plead with my belly, What can I do? Tell me! Also, I would like my body back, please. I feel like I am the size of a baby beluga whale. I fear what I might look like AFTER baby and it's beginning to make me consider hibernation. Or extreme workouts beginning the day I get out of the hospital. Possibly both. 

But at the end of the day, all superficial and vanity reasons aside (of which I have many), I am impatient because I want my baby here. I would like to start being a mom already, geez! We are clearly on the cusp of something big here and I am ready to get this new chapter started. Everything is set up, the strollers, the car seat, the musical swings, and the vibrating chairs. The bassinet is set up next to our bed, ready to go. However it looks mighty lonely all empty like that.

We're waiting on you, kid! 

Looks like I'll be making tomorrow's doctor appointment. Hopefully more news tomorrow.